[And she runs a hand through her hair before setting her glasses back on the bridge of her nose again.]

I just now realized that I could have handled you in a variety of ways, but I can't say this outcome is all that bad. As they say, it could be worse.

But, if you're asking me why...

[She makes a noncommittal gesture with both hands.]

... I don't think I'm very good at acting like a normal person?

[Why is she like this]