[Well, that plan of ignoring want almost got shot (hell, what does she even want, Ai is finding it harder and harder to figure out the more time she spends time with him)]
Lancer... I'm happy. I really am. But in the end I'm just...
[... An orphan girl. A lonely girl. Both she and Lien woke up with nothing. Ai knew that Lien felt as if she was literally nothing which is why she didn't want to burden her younger twin. But that only made her feel more forlorn and even more desperate and she hid it by working hard, just being herself; the horribly sentimental self she had woken up as even if she couldn't remember why she became that way.
Ai had been working so hard as an apprentice just so she wouldn't disappear even if all she had were her Eyes. And now that this Spirit was here, even if unwavering loyalty to the end was his goal and for his honor, it felt like she was being cherished in a way that she had never thought existed in any other person before. She felt significant.
A rapturous first.]
... Never mind that. [She draws the jacket around her shoulders tightly.]
no subject
Lancer... I'm happy. I really am. But in the end I'm just...
[... An orphan girl. A lonely girl. Both she and Lien woke up with nothing. Ai knew that Lien felt as if she was literally nothing which is why she didn't want to burden her younger twin. But that only made her feel more forlorn and even more desperate and she hid it by working hard, just being herself; the horribly sentimental self she had woken up as even if she couldn't remember why she became that way.
Ai had been working so hard as an apprentice just so she wouldn't disappear even if all she had were her Eyes. And now that this Spirit was here, even if unwavering loyalty to the end was his goal and for his honor, it felt like she was being cherished in a way that she had never thought existed in any other person before. She felt significant.
A rapturous first.]
... Never mind that. [She draws the jacket around her shoulders tightly.]
The rain feels nice...